It’s been an odd week being back home only for a few days. I’ve been swirling around with many thoughts and have opened a new can of mystery that I’m hoping will have an interesting answer, just for me though.
Despite having a weirdly active mind, I’ve felt stagnant. Hit with the effects of “too tired,” I used to think that I didn’t really enjoy being alone at home time because it was all I knew—forced upon me—but I realized it’s where my homeostasis is. It’s hard to find this balance when the hours in the day don’t feel enough to do all you want to do. Especially when those YouTube recommendations of House clickbait clips keep getting me.
The days roll over onto the next and the next, trying to divide the time, feeling like you’re doing enough, and knowing that summer is the only time of the year you really get to rest. Sometimes I think that guilt is one of the easiest feelings to find within yourself. There’s always something to fault, always something you could be doing better. But we are just people working at the speed our body allows us to. Truly, doesn’t it all, in the end, tend to work out? I have to believe that because so far it has been true.
I think part of this is because I’m too ambitious and want to do too many things, but I have to remember to move one foot at a time. Slowly but steadily. On this note, I’ve added learning to play chess to the list of things to do, but chess is also hard and a long-term commitment. Maybe my constant obsession with time is because my birthday is on Friday, and the subconsciousness of aging is seeping into my brain, even if I’m excited. Regardless, remember to be kind to yourself, that’s what I really wanted to say.
Little Deaths
♡ long midday naps
♡ unripe tomatoes
♡ humid offices
♡ trying to have a conversation but you’re rudely interrupted by a passing train
Little Delights
♡ resting
♡ aging and gaining back a right that the uk gave you and america stripped
♡ playing a playlist of oldies sierra leone songs for my dad and having his face light up with recognition and nostalgia
♡ getting peanut butter from the deli and asking for a spoon
♡ going out just to dance
♡ morning breezes when the air is crisp with an autumn thats really 4 months away
From the Hot Literati Universe
Catch up
♡ Why I'm Optimistic about Artificial Intelligence as an Artist a video
♡ How to navigate a career in the arts a video
♡ Connecting to God and making Art a video
♡ Think and Grow Rich - Week 2 Book Club
Coming Up
Book Club tomorrow! Here is the link for the reading schedule and playlist with audiobook chapters.
What the interns are…
Announcing August book club pick” for Friday
A piece by the amazing Hailo! hints: Boat rave!
thank alyssa for most of the deaths and delights <3
wishing you the best with all of my heart and soul,
Kaday
the cover image is so good what is it ???
real.... house on youtube shorts has me in a chokehold