I am afraid to (I will not??) get married and 1 more confession

I am afraid that my outsides don’t match who I am inside.

And I am deeply afraid of marriage, I think. Which doesn’t really make sense for someone whose parents are still married. A rarity, I didn’t realize until middle school.

But, as you all know, I’ve been doing a ton of reflection on people pleasing. and I’ve been reading that book about reflecting …